People people people...

Man alive. I just finished reading some posts on one of frequented message boards, and I realize that I'm not the only one who says stuff and then people leap all over it and distort it and argue it when what I said was merely meant to be an observation. Sometimes, the stupidity of the human mind can amaze me. Are we naturally defensive creatures? From my short time on earth, it is my observation that humans can be very selfish in nature. I think that the defensive thing stems from the selfish nature of some humans that don't have it conditioned out of them. For instance, using myself as an example, I am a firm believer in Altruism. I believe people should do good things without thought of reward because it's the right thing to do. Therefore, when I see an injustice, I go to correct it as best I can. Some people may make a half-assed attempt at rectifying the injustice while others go right on by not even thinking "oh that sucks for them." Now that being said, if person A told person B who went right on by that it was wrong to leave that person lying on the floor writhing in pain a jackass- then person B would throw a fit and say how they were being picked on unjustifiably and make some irrelevant rant as to how person A is immature. Person B is the same person who is so selfish that not only do they not care about others, but they get defensive when their actions are mentioned or observed. Person B makes zombies look tolerable. At least a zombie knows that they want to eat the flesh off a human and they don't fight the fact that we uninfected need to kill them. No, they just try to eat our flesh as well. ...Which in a weird sense it could be argued that they are like person B, attacking us because they think we're attacking them. *Sigh* I've come to realize that this world wouldn't become any better even if there were zombies crawling 'round trying to suck the brains out of our contorted living bodies. Or are the human masses just really zombies in a living state? Brainless- they wear what they are told is fashionable, eat what they are told is appealing, and listen to music that is played over and over again with annoying hooks. There are varying levels of zombienism, at least I believe so anyway. We have the office yuppie zombie, the redneck zombie, even school zombies. I figure it's only legal to attack the undead kind of zombie though, so I guess I'm waiting until the apocalypse when I can unleash years of repressed rage at the stupidity and cruelness of people upon the undead masses. I need to go play some video games, I done got myself worked up. Keep your eyes out for zombies. They're your neighbors, cousins, boyfriends and girlfriends... Maybe even I'm a zombie...Naw that's impossible. I'm too awesome to be a zombie. Today's moral lesson? Be nicer to your fellow man and if you see a zombie chomping down on someone, save 'em and take the zombie out, then head on to work or where ever your feet may take you. Later guys!

My silly little girls

So I was wondering why the girl's cage smelt so freaking funny and I found out why when I decided today would be a good day to give their cage that overall cleaning that I need to do every week instead of every other week. ...They've been using the igloo as a bathroom. I was so disgusted, but it's all clean now. I gave them baths and they're clean now. I also took the igloo out and put another litter box in their cage. They now have two and Eva got a little pissy so she flung litter all over the bottom of the cage. The funny thing is, when I went to get all their bedding and fun tunnels out of the bottom, I find all this food. They had been hoarding food. I think it's for winter, of course ferrets are known for hoarding things. Moving along, school sucks ass. I hate everyone (except for the cool people that don't piss me off) in one of my classes. I got the gall (funny since I don't have one anymore, lol) to send an e-mail to them all because they're always so rude to the professor. Yea, I probably could have done what I did in a better manner, but I stick by what I said and luckily of the 6 people that sent me responses (which I didn't read because I knew they were negative), I got 6 other people that were all like "I agree with you and got your back." So it worked out. Thankfully, I think it's going to blow over and hopefully they'll forget what I said but change their behaviour in class. Bleh, I'm just rambling away, sorry. Friday, I got a midterm and today I went to a JET presentation. I think I really want to do it. My butt is going to Japan. Especially if they pay me to go and then pay me to teach and be the awesome person I am, lol. Okay I really am just trying to think of things to say so I'm gonna get crackin' on some paperwork for school and this second job I want. Good night guys!

...bring the fire...

I'm trying my best to be inspired. To be motivated. To do something that will benefit me. To do something that will make me happy and ease the gnawing hunger of desire to do something productive. My mind is swimming with electricity and I wonder when it'll pay off, when thinking so much will produce something wonderful. I sat in a club meeting today and thought, "Why not start my own club?" I won't because I'm too lazy. Or is it because I'm afraid of failure? With a little force, I made myself sit down and sketch out the rest of my t-shirt design for the Japanese club on campus. Will they like? Who knows. Will they use it? Probably not because I'm not as an amazing artist as everyone tells me. Everyone always tells me something that I seriously doubt...but they wouldn't go out of their way to say something nice so maybe there's something there. Some fuel to bring the fire of the muses into my mind to do something creative. To do something to make everyone glance twice. Can I do it? I don't have any delusions of grandeur, for I know that I'm not someone amazingly brilliant. My IQ is 195, doesn't matter because what's that supposed to prove to anyone? I scored high on an aptitude test for the government, am I going to become an agent of a capitalist government who'd rather jump ship than save the other passengers? No, but I'm not intelligent enough to gather a group or lead a group of people to make changes. I don't want to be great, but I want to do something beneficial to me and my future generations to come. It's scary to think about the things that I could do, but neglect to do. Should I try harder to stoke the fire of revolution within myself? Can I change for the better? I want this don't I? Hell yeah. I want to be someone that others recognize more than anything. I don't have to be great, but I want that acknowledgment. I don't know how, but I will do something that others will see. ...I just hope that when that fire burns, the fuel won't run out. The fire will passionately consume me and urge me forth into an unknown future. Others have great expectations of me, should I have them as well? Fine, I'll bring the fire to ignite my soul into action and come alive instead of just living everyday day to day. I'll use it to live instead of just existing and drifting along lifelessly in this cesspool of life. It's going to happen, I just need to work harder...who knows, maybe I will. Torch in hand, here I go.